Thursday, 27 March 2008 Y 22:53

hey the week's been pretty bummed.. so sad.. i know thts life.. but i dont want it this way. haiz.
why do i have to lose the very person im so in love with.?
it's not that we cant stand each other.. we're still in love. but we know how it'll end. haiz.
i havent cried so much in so long. why start again now?
everyone's been telling me to take it easy and just enjoy whatever's left of it. trust me. im trying real hard. but its like a haunting shadow.
ive never felt this low. not even when i found out i was getting retained. once we talked it out. and the harsh reality was made known. it was like i just died. like my soul sucked out.
disembodied. just a body. without a purpose.
i had to drag myself to school. at which i cried again. to my friends while telling them what happened.
a side of me i've never revealed til now.
i trying to focus as much as i can. i think im doing ok enough to get on with school. but its just when im alone and when im unable to immerse myself with the hype of the crowd is when i just lose myself.
i just want him. no one else.